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She sat there alone, cold and depressed. The bags under her eyes, her hair messed up and the baggy thin clothes she wore because she didn’t care anymore. She didn’t care about her life anymore. Being in a relationship with the girl I love isn’t easy. I try to make her stop. Make her stop reading the death threats on the internet but I can’t always be with her, I wish I could. Sometimes she calls me during the middle of the night telling me she’s worthless and why should I be with her. It makes me cry, it hurts me a lot and breaks my heart into pieces. I cannot believe people and most times ‘fans’ would stoop so low to make us unhappy. If you want a unhappy Harry then okay, you can get that. I try to give you the world and you treat me and the things that make me happy like shit. I got used to the fact that I was gonna get hate and ignored it. Yeah, the first couple times I cried to myself but a simple tweet or post saying you want my girlfriend to die then I feel like punching walls. Do you even realize what this does to her? She started cutting just 2 weeks ago and the cuts are getting bigger and deeper by the minute. She doesn’t talk to anyone else except me and her family. She doesn’t even want to take a step outside her house. She said if I leave her then she would kill herself. I’m honestly not taking my chances because there’s a huge possibility she would. I tried to get help but he wouldn’t listen. I love this girl with all my heart but these people are tearing us apart. I’m sorry that God made me drag her into this mess. I’m sorry for everything.

 —————— NEXT MORNING ——————

I just got off work to surprise my girlfriend with her birthday breakfast! I was kinda excited considering she hadn’t been out in a long time and she doesn’t know what the new crazes are. I walk into her bedroom, on the tray lays a couple pancakes, a coffee with a side order of the biggest smile in the world from Harry! My heart sunk into my throat. I couldn’t believe it. Shock hits me as the tray falls from my hands to my feet. My beautiful, adorable, lovely and caring girlfriend is hanging from her neck in front of me. I checked her pulse and yet, nothing. I began to cry my insides out. I punched the wall a couple times to let my anger out. I punched it so hard that I nearly broke my knuckles, they began to bleed and bleed and bleed. I let out a massive scream saying, “SORRY!” I couldn’t pronounce it right because my throat was going crazy from crying too much. I stop for a minute, lay my hand on her cheek and say, “I’ll see you soon, I promise.” 

—————— LATER ON THAT DAY ——————

I wrote a letter to everyone I loved. My parents, siblings, friends and just in general everyone. It was a letter to say goodbye. I mailed them all through the box. My heart was throbbing. I walked home looking away from everyone I walked past. I went upstairs and lay on her bed pretending she was there, beside me. Hand in hand while looking into her beautiful, glittering eyes. Both smiling at each other. I went through to the bathroom and started to fill the bath. I walked back through to the bedroom as she still hung there, I didn’t want to move her because I knew I couldn’t do it. The only way how we could get rid of all the hate is that if I was up in heaven with her. The bath slowly overflows but that’s okay. I take my phone and wallet out of my pocket. In my other pocket I find a picture of me and her, together, smiling. I took a moment to realize how unhappy I was without her. I crawled my way into the bath and covered my whole body is water. I held the picture of us close to my heart. Not much longer until I’m there with her, happy. With no one to annoy us, just together like the good old days. 

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I see her, I see her face past the white cloudy mist. I walk towards her and grab her hand. I held her close and told her about the letters I wrote to my family and friends. She looked so happy and healthy. I’m finally with her again.

Written by Adele from niallimagines