It felt like my whole body froze. I was so numb, I couldn’t feel anything. I quickly closed my laptop, and turned to run up the stairs just as the doorbell rang. I could hear my brother walking toward the door. “NO ZACK, DON’T OPEN!” I shouted, but too late. I heard the little click from the lock that meant that he’d opened the door. I slid down on the floor next to the kitchen counter. Tears started streaming down my face as I hear my brother greet him. Him. “Liam! What a surprise! Congrats on the success man!” Zack said. “Hey man! Yeah, thanks! I was in the neighborhood, and I was thinking I should pay Mel a visit, it’s been so long!” his voice said. His sweet voice, which I hadn’t heard in two years. I heard my brother hesitate. “Uhm, I’ll go get her for you!” he said, and I heard his footsteps come closer. I buried my face in my hands. I felt Zack’s arms wrap around me. “You want to go out the back door?” he silently asked me. I shook my head. I had to face him sometime. I got up, wiped away the tears, and walked towards the front door. The few steps felt like a million. I turned around the corner, and I saw him. He was standing awkwardly in the doorway. His light brown hair was shorter than I remembered, and it was no longer straightened. His hands were deep in the pockets of his dark blue jeans. His Burberry t-shirt fitted his muscular body perfectly. He was all I could ever want, and all I could never have. His head turned to me as my footsteps came closer. His brown eyes locked with my blue. Those perfect eyes, the ones that I could stare into forever. I stopped in front of him. We stood there for a couple of seconds, just looking at each other. He seemed hesitant, almost scared. No wonder, I thought. The last time he saw me I was angry and upset at him. “Hi” he said, so low I almost couldn’t hear what he was saying. “Hi” I said, my voice showing no emotion. His hand went up, and he scratched the back of his head. “Sooo… How’re you been?” he asked awkwardly. I just looked at him. I couldn’t do this. This was wrong. He hurt me so much. He can’t just walk in here and expect everything to be back to normal. I crossed my hands defensively. “Good.” I replied with a blank expression. His eyes locked with mine. His were filled with guilt and sadness. But I was not going to give in. No way. “Mel, I’m so so-” he begun, but I cut him off. “Save it, I don’t need your apologies. Just please leave me alone.” I said, my face still not showing any emotion, but my inside was in full chaos. “But-” he began. “No. You fucking me, you knew I needed you and you just left! I can’t trust you, and you need to leave! Goodbye Liam, hope you have a nice life without me!” I said and shut the door. The last I saw of him was the hurt expression in his face. I felt myself break down again. I slid down on the floor and started sobbing. Why couldn’t he just leave me alone? I heard Zack walk past me and open the door, then after a couple of seconds he closed it again. I felt Zack’s arm wrap around me for the third time today. “Shh. It’s okay, he’s gone now.” he mumbled into my hair. I pulled out of the embrace and wiped away the tears with the back of my hand. “Okay.” I mumbled and got up, and walked towards the stairs. “But he left this by the door!” he shouted after me. I spun around, and saw Zack stand with a letter in his hand. I walked back, and he handed it to me. I took it silently and walked up to my room and locked the door. I sat down on my bed, and opened it slowly.
To my Melody
I can’t believe it’s been two years since the last time I saw you. If you’re reading this, it means you’re still angry at me, and won’t forgive me. I just want you to know that I’m so sorry, and I miss you. I miss our movie nights, our long walks, our silly conversations, all the random things we did. I miss my best friend. I know everything has changed now; I’m living the dream now. But it doesn’t feel right without you here. I’m really not good at this writing letters thing, but I guess it’s the only way to let you know how sorry I am. If you’re ever ready to forgive me, I’ll be here. Always. I love you Mel, and I miss you. I miss my best friend.
AN: As promised, here is chapter 2 of This Is Love! I’m really happy with this chapter, and feedback is much appreciated! -Marte xx